Ohtori Choutarou

scudserve @ 2006-02-14T19:03:00

2006-02-15T01:04:53Z

Another year older and another Valentine's Day survived... ^^;

Now to sift through all this chocolate...

♥ Simple as that. ^_^

scudserve @ 2005-10-03T10:08:00

2005-10-03T15:09:17Z

Rather exhausted from the weekend... and a bit sore.

Hm...

Wonder what that could be?

scudserve @ 2005-09-29T11:14:00

2005-09-29T16:17:48Z

Happy birthday, Shishido-san.

Hope today is good for you.

Shishido-san

I'm extremely sorry I can't spend tonight with you and give you the present I really want to give you. I'm free this weekend, however, if you are. I'd like to celebrate with you, if that'd be alright...

I really do hope today is going well and I have a present to give you at practice. Maybe we could even use it this weekend.

scudserve @ 2005-09-18T19:25:00

2005-09-19T00:33:13Z

School and classes seem to have been going at a fairly normal pace, actually. Save for me being somewhat glad I'm not a third year, from the various reactions I've seen from others.

...Yeah, I'm a bit late in writing about that.

Shishido-san

So, senpai, what did they teach you? Care to instruct your kouhai? ^_^

Private

I'm am still upset that Shishido-san did what he did. I'm more upset the fact about something that could have happened... I mean, really. What if he had gotten hurt a lot worse? I know I should be glad that he's fine, but... doesn't change the fact that I still worry.

scudserve @ 2005-08-09T01:06:00

2005-08-09T06:08:56Z

Shishido-san

Ne... could you, by any chance, come and kidnap me from my homework and various other studies sometime soon?

I like being able to blame not getting something done on you. I mean... not that I'd do that. Ever. I'm a good boy, after all...

I'd just love to see you soon.

Probably won't get this until tomorrow, of course... Since it is so late. Wouldn't dare to wake you up like last time.

Just, when you see this... come by sometime. I miss seeing my boyfriend's face outside of school.

scudserve @ 2005-07-25T02:14:00

2005-07-25T07:21:10Z

Busy.

Way too busy.

Private

I feel near a breaking point. I'm sure my performance at school, tennis practice and violin has all dropped sharply. I have to remember not to promise this much ever again.

Hopefully these projects don't take as long as I expect them to and I'll be able to get on to the next one faster, but somehow I doubt that.

My family has even commented on how I've been looking lately. I suppose skipping out on meals because of "no time" is a bad idea. I'm sure Shishido-san would kill me if he knew that bit. It's not that I'm trying to do this, but I've promised others things and I refuse to let them down.

Shishido-san

I want to see you more. I really do. I have a lot of projects to take care of still and I don't know when all of this storm of things I'm doing will... well... calm. I'm really sorry about this.

I'd write more, but... I have to get going. Still have a few more things before sleep. ...Hopefully.

scudserve @ 2005-07-18T05:16:00

2005-07-18T10:24:04Z

I'm still in a somewhat state of shock.

Shishido-san

I'm sorry this next week is so busy for me... I'm really hoping there isn't too much planned the week after. I want to be able to see you more than just passing through the halls or during practice.

Please forgive me, my wonderful senpai?

Sengoku-san

...I wanted to thank you for your advice. I know it's take a long time for me to follow through, but you were right. True... it was him that made th first move, somewhat, but... All in all, I'm happy now... and again, thanks.

Private

I can't believe I'm still trying to catch up with everything I've been trying to pack in my days. It seems like once I get one thing done, I'm reminded of something else I promised someone. I have to keep in mind now that I need to find some more time with Shishido-san, too. It isn't fair for him to have a disappearing boyfriend.

Just hoping this stress goes away soon and my sleep pattern kicks in normal again. Four hours of rest is going to catch up on me soon. At least the weekends are a smidge less stressful.

scudserve @ 2005-07-09T03:46:00

2005-07-09T08:48:15Z

Got the shot. That's over and done with... Honestly, it hurt, but wasn't as bad as some people are complaining over, in my opinion.

Private

...Why did I have to say anything? I don't know why my devious little spot struck right then and now I feel kind of... weird.

Should I feel glad or upset he said that it was only his annoyance saying those things to me?

Ugh! He's my doubles partner! I know Sengoku-san said not to think too much about it and just go for it and say something, but that was a long while ago he told me that and I've not said anything. I'm beginning to doubt I ever will. Probably for the best.

I feel really awkward right now...

And now he's told me to come over and distract him. As well, I'm supposed to bring my violin. Must make a mental note not to make up violin practice I don't need to stall for more time. My fingers are going to hurt so bad by the end of the day.

Crap. This is getting weirder and weirder. I just need to tell him soon.

...Which could possibly be the last day of school so I won't have to see him in the halls or at practice or anything...

Yeah. I'm stalling, and not just in getting over to his house.

scudserve @ 2005-07-02T02:11:00

2005-07-02T07:13:45Z

...I feel bad for having neglected this journal for so long.

Various items in my life have been stressers and I've not had hardly any time for myself. Again. Like usual.

I like it this way, don't get me wrong, but it doesn't leave too much time for free time.

Also, as much as I hate to admit it, I really hate needles, but apparently they don't bug me like they bug some people. As long as I can intently watch what they are doing to me, I'm fine.

Yes, I'm well aware I shouldn't be up this hour, but I couldn't sleep. So, might as well get something... productive... done.

scudserve @ 2005-05-26T20:16:00

2005-05-27T01:21:39Z

Private

...I'm not sure what to make of Shishido-san's last message. It's private now and... uh...

I think I'll ask him to a movie, maybe. That might be something we could do... Just have to work up the courage.

scudserve @ 2005-05-19T13:59:00

2005-05-19T19:02:49Z

I've gotten so busy again. Feel bad about having neglected this journal, I've just simply had no time to stop by and even make a post.

Private

...I want to Shishido-san more, but... I've just been so busy. It makes me sad. One of his comments makes me wonder if I should keep persuing him or not. I guess I should just take Sengoku-san's words and suck it up and get over it. I really need to do that.

Only now that I can't see him am I realizing just how strongly I feel about him. I feel rather confused inside, but I'm trying to maintain my calm.

scudserve @ 2005-04-21T05:36:00

2005-04-21T10:42:05Z

Ne, Sengoku-san, are you free any time this week?

Private

My feelings are so mixed up right now. I don't know what to do. I feel like I want to say something to him, but... I don't know when the "right time" is or anything. Or if there ever will be a right time.

I really respect Shishido-san... And I appreciate all the effort and help he's giving me. I sometimes worry if I say anything... that'll end up ruined. Maybe I'm just thinking about all this too much.

Tonight is going to be interesting. Let's just say that...

Shishido-san

Mou... I'm sorry that I'm going to be forcing my way into staying over tonight... Sorry my mom kind of talked it out with your mother without really asking...

Sengoku-san

Just wanted to, uh, update you? I still haven't plucked up my courage to talk to him, but... I still wanted to thank you for what you said to me. Hopefully soon...

Private

I'm so going to die.

[ooc: cut wasn't supposed to be messed up on purpose, but you know what? I like the humour in it. XD]

scudserve @ 2005-04-13T06:24:00

2005-04-13T11:27:04Z

Don't have much time to make an exactual post about my time at camp right now, unless I want to be late to class. I don't think that's how I want to come back to my classes, though.

I can say that I am glad to be back.

[OOC: And so am I, Ohtori. ^_^ *waves at all of you*]

scudserve @ 2005-03-31T01:56:00

2005-03-31T08:00:31Z

I'm going away to another violin camp. I couldn't turn it down since it was from a very important school and they are prospecting students who seem to be excelling in their arts.

The only problem is that I'll be missing a fair amount of practice. Though, I'll make sure to work extra hard when I get back and practice at this camp when I get time to do as such.

See you all when I get back!

[OOC: And see you all when *I* am able to post as Ohtori. Love you all. *hugs all around*]

scudserve @ 2005-03-30T01:35:00

2005-03-30T07:40:27Z

Hn. I don't exactly see where all the rumours about Sengoku-san come from. Meeting up with him was very... nice.

Truth be told, I'm glad I was somewhat rude and barged into his journal. I got the chance to meet a very nice person. Maybe we could even do something again, ne, Sengoku-san?

Sengoku

I wanted to thank you again about the good luck and meeting with me. I still do feel a bit guilty about pointing fingers and being so upfront about it...

scudserve @ 2005-03-21T10:54:00

2005-03-21T16:55:00Z

After school and practice today I'm going to be meeting up with Sengoku Kiyosumi. Hm.

He seems like a nice enough guy... I don't know why some people have been telling me to avoid him...

Well, I shall just see for myself then, right?

scudserve @ 2005-03-18T22:12:00

2005-03-19T04:21:53Z

I feel slightly unsettled about something. About what? That I couldn't tell you. I'm not exactly sure myself. Something just doesn't feel right.

Private
I'm getting used to spending time with Shishido-san... It's... strange, actually. I find myself wanting to make excuses to spend more time with him.

I'm slightly afraid of what my emotions are starting to turn to, though. If he knew... Well, I'm not going to think like that.

...And I still hate frogs.

scudserve @ 2005-03-13T14:41:00

2005-03-13T19:41:30Z

Did I ever mention how much I hate frogs?

I swear, every second I tried to sleep last night, I kept waking up and swearing I heard croaking. I hope that this does not continue to when I even get home.

It is not a delightful thing to have not only a frog jump on your face in front of the other regulars and Seishun Gakuen Regulars. As well, everyone just staring. Not only that, but waking up to frogs surrounding you and on your stomach is an experience I would much like to avoid in the future.

I really hope I can sleep tonight.

scudserve @ 2005-03-03T04:41:00

2005-03-03T10:51:10Z

I'm up. Far too early, even. I suppose this is good, though. I can go take a relaxing job and enjoy the sunrise while I'm out.

I wasn't sure what I was expecting coming here, but I'm certainly not going to complain. The rooms are extremely nice. I don't think I've slept this soundly in a while.

Okay, I think I'll go take that jog now.

scudserve @ 2005-02-22T20:18:00

2005-02-23T02:17:55Z

Well, I’m finally back.

I’ve been long absent from a concert I’d been preparing for now for some time. I’ve had absolutely no free time with how much I’ve been practicing my violin. I don’t mind one bit, though. It’s just somewhat nice to have a bit of free time again now.

Don’t have terribly too much else to write right now, though.

Though, you know. This entry is much more hassle than it's worth. I think this livejournal has a severe hatred for me right now. I can tell you the feeling is rather mutual at this point, too.